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today has been brilliant! kicked started the day at the bank and got my first credit card.. with a massive credit line..haha apparently the financial banking agencies have more faith in my dollar worth than anyone else.. subjective normative emotions aside im worthy.. hahá ;)! ok but the best is yet to come!! i bought my first SURF BOARD!! it was so exciting! his name is Potts, his 6.6 by 20 by 2.5.. very sturdy, very hunky, nice and very well waxed!:) his slightly pale tho, reckon i need to bring him out in the sun more.. give him a nice tan.. and reckon he'll prove as a worthy companion.. !! im so excited:) watched tomb raider today.. that lara croft chick is really sexy.. haha im kindda embaressed that i cant remember her name tho. but yeah thought i've tried a couple of things but she got up to pretty cool shit, think its gonna be hard to keep up. well ive got a couple more years of youth before the ageing process sets in so im hopeful.. oh and my official quit smoking day starts AUG 14! so wish me luck and that gives anyone a license to kick my arse if they catch me with my once trusted companion.. this is the final good bye. :( had some good times tho, but the relationship was taking to much, all the effort up in smoke.. haha sorry but i could possibly go on for another half a page with smoking puns.. so reckon you guys should consider yourselves lucky im restricting myself to one liners. alright.. so down to food for thought on this cold friday night... ive been fascinated with the ageing process and fidelity. went to the gym today.. yoga .. found myself in the suana.. closed eyes.. intense heat.. sweat on brow.. door opens.. monsoon showers goes on.. me focussing on heat.. but wonder who this unknown figure is.. suana door opens.. me closed eyes.. a series of muffled gutteral sounds.. clearing of air passagess. sigh.. im started to imagine how this person looks like.. i was thinking, perhaps a 50+ business man.. over weight for sure considering the plodding.. hairy chest..heart problems. married kids.. boring life.. couldnt resist temptation.. opened eyes.. damn! turns out to be some 60 year old women, sorry but yeah fat and wearing this multi coloured swim suit. point!??? ok well what can you expect when your a 60 year old grandma.. i know putting aside the fact that i sound really mean .. seriously, now in our flaming youth.. can you imagine yourself reaching such a state? she was probabaly pretty in her youth.. got married and then mermaid turned whale.. how do you deal with such degradation.. wait dont get me wrong.. i think growing old with some one is beautiful.. you get to watch the whole life cycle of man. something im lookin forward too..but still some where along the line something wrong happened.. i mean there has to be a way of growing old gracefully is there not? if looks could kill? ok where does fidelity come in? well how is it like waking up everyday.. next to some one old? wont a man/woman be tempted to run away with some attractive girl/ hot guy in a red dress/panama shirt+khaki pants+leather slippers with the promise of youth and adventure??!.. i once spoked to  a collegue that said if you love someone, youll always see the face of the person you fell in love with.. i like that thought.. haha im a hopeless romantic and a tired one too! its 1 am need beauty sleep! haha well you got to hedge your bets! ;) hahaah well good night sweet ladies, good night..

Currently Listening Amores Perros (2000 Film) By Various Artists - Soundtracks see related

22 degrees..light breeze..sunshine..lots of it! :) it was one of those perfect days where moments come so rapid and in such succession..! had a really long day at uni today.. but it was great fun! game theory especially.. cant believe its such an evil science.. emphatize.. dance with the enenmy and then poke him in the gut with a rusty blunt blade.. haha sounds so ruthless right.. should have made  the lecture MA++ oh wait we're all pretty old .. how am i going to survive in such a cruel world??! apparently, the movie beautiful mind was about this theory--the NASH equilibrium. reckon id have to watch the movie again some time.. been watching way too much TV.. all this bombardment of information. no wonder people are so confused...! second thought.. or question.. do you reckon that universal human rights exists? that is that everyone in the world should expect these rights as birth rites? cultures/ideas are interesting.. because thats what constitutes a society.. down to basics.. what do we inherently know.. at the bottom line.. are we all blank slates? ok that qs is outdated..overused and boring..  we are clearly not..we are born with certain characterisitics.. but as soon as we regain consciousness.. that is when we start seeing ourselves as individuals.. what do we come to expect.. ?? i have been lucky to have lived a life of relative luxury and surrounded by so many who have too. its hard to comprehend what life is like or what to expect when basic needs such as food and shelter or rights such as privacy and respect are deprived of us.. what happens to us at such times of depravation? how would one feel.. even if one never experienced what a good life was and grew up in a place like rhodesia or somalia.. as a child how would you feel? this idea of emphathy so strangely links us to the other.. our common ' humanness'. guess our stand point on what makes us who we are.. nature vs nurture really affects how we percieve the other.. do you think that you feel more than the next person.. deserve better treatment cause ignorance is no longer an adage.. or that indeed all man are similar when it comes down to basics? alright guys! im sorry this is a poorly written blog entry.. i know..! you know when you play tennis and the ball comes at you and the min the ball and the racquet has impact.. you dont even need to look up to know how the return is.. fault! 

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good evening to my unknown existent fan base.. haha this is like my 5th/6th? blog entry and im sure that no one knows it exists at all.. well ill try to publise it soon. cause the very reason i can even bring myself to type this is cause i think the concept of personal journals very very strange.. i mean whats the difference in writing to yourself and talking to yourself? well if you think the latter is normal than, i rest my case.. but i personally think its unhealthy.. maybe thats because ive met many people who are much more interesting to dialogue with than myself... so whats been happening? oh wait before i say more.. quote of the day.. all styles are good except the boring. oh and i have to say the thing bothering me the most to day was how disfigured my hands are! i mean seriously if you were to isolate my hands from the rest of my body youll really think im diseased and be ready to ship me off to the leper colonies.. on that note.. of social segmentation. can anyone truly understand the concept of segmentation? i mean we have all been plumped up with dose after dose of freedom. that i think the concept is soo alien.. i reckon the closest we have to that in our beautiful bubble of first world luxury would probably be the below 18 and the 18 and beyond. well 21 if your american... how can we forget.. ok ill try to be apolitical. which brings us to th next point of social segmentation, which is peer imposed to systematic law based segmentation and ostracism.. can you imagine how horrible that is.. cant quite comprehend.. why? would anyone enforce such prejudices? seriously? its unnatural.. sorry but this dichotomy of natural and unnatural for me is a new and fascinating concept.. but on a really random note.. i need to buy myself a new chair..!